I woke up about 3:30 AM and was wide awake and all I could think about was Charlee coming along with my beautiful princess Rylee asleep in her Minnie Mouse bed in her room. I laid next to my wife who I love with everything in me and felt all the emotions of gratitude flood over me at once. I couldn't help but look up at the ceiling, trying to peer through it, and thank Jesus for being so good to me. I'm so blessed. I don't deserve it. I have no idea why I've been so blessed. I have an amazing wife who loves me, supports me, and puts up with me. I have a beautiful daughter in Rylee who has captured my heart forever. In so many ways, her birth saved me all over again. Becoming her "DaDa" taught me to see my relationship with God in a brand new way and it's changed everything about me. Knowing that we're about to have another little angel in our family is almost overwhelming. I know I'll learn so many more things about myself and the Lord through her birth and life.
I look back at all the things I've been able to do with Rylee and I realize I get to do all of that all over again with Charlee. I'm not really sure how to love two children, but I know I'll figure that out when I meet Charlee for the first time. I want to be a great daddy. I want both of my girls to know that they are the center of my heart. I look forward to play dates with both of them separately as Rylee and I do pretty regularly, and together. I can only imagine the fun / trouble the three of us are going to get in. Billie will have to straighten us out for sure. I know Rylee is going to be an amazing big sister. She's been wanting "Charlee to come out of Mama's belly" for awhile now. My home is going to be full of little girls' laughter, tea parties, My Little Ponies, Disney, and more for a long time, and I love it!
I prayed for Rylee and I prayed for Charlee. I wanted two girls and God answered my prayers. I don't take my responsibility lightly to be their daddy. I have a great task to demonstrate a godly father, husband, and man in front of my girls. Life is crazy and sin brings hurt and pain, but I know that if I shower them with love and make them the two most important little girls in my world, they'll always know that they're Daddy's little girls. I don't want them to have to look elsewhere for love and acceptance now or certainly in the future. I pray that I can be a good example to them both.
To Rylee Buggy: You're my heart baby girl. You were my first. You were an answered prayer. You will always be princess. When you call me your "king of the world," my heart skips ten beats and my eyes well up with tears. There's nothing I won't do for you baby girl. There's nothing I wouldn't give up for you. There's no price I wouldn't pay to make you feel my love and to make you happy in this life. We will be welcoming Charlee June into our family and we're both so excited. It makes me so glad to see how excited you are. You're only 3 so you can't possibly understand that now you'll have to share DaDa with more than just Mommy. But never, ever, feel forgotten, left out, or overlooked. The memories we've created and the relationship we have will only continue to grow deeper and stronger as you grow up, (and may I add you're growing up extremely too fast for me). We will still have our Rylee & Daddy days. That's a promise. We'll have those as long as I live. I'm so proud of you my baby girl. I can't imagine life without you. I love you always and forever my sweet princess.
To Charlee June: I love you already. I don't even know what you look like. With Rylee, we were able to get a 4D Ultrasound and we had a pretty good idea of what she would probably look like. You will be a complete surprise. I'm so ready to meet you. I've already got big plans for you. Your sister, Rylee, and I worked really hard to paint your room and get it ready for you. She's ready to meet you and play with you and I am too. I've made a lot of memories with your big sister and I can't wait to make them with you too. Your sister and I have a special day set aside where we take off on adventures together. I'll be doing the same thing with you. It'll be Charlee & Daddy day. I'm going to show you the world sweet girl. I want to be your knight in shining armor long before you need one. There's nothing I want do to make you the happiest little girl on the planet. Life is crazy and you'll find that out, but I make this promise to you now, and I'll repeat it in the future; no matter what life brings, there is nothing that will ever make me quit loving you. We will always be together and I will always stand with you on your side. I love you always and forever my Charlee Girl.